this entry is the truth as i see it. it may be too narrow-minded for many and a little lame for others but in spite of that ill go ahead and write (or shall i say type?) things within the very dark labyrinth of my mind because i can no longer stomach the injustice, disgust, pain, and everything else in between.........
respect!? is that too much to ask of a person? why do we have to be someone we are clearly not just to gain some respect? why cant people just accept us as we very well are and just respect us? so what if other people are cool being snobs and jerks? and what if others get their way with things by being manipulative and conniving? must we succumb to the attrocity of 'faking' an identity just to be respected? is it really worth it to bury your true self to fit it, to belong? i cannot comprehend it! it must be horrid being something we are not yet people go on doing it to so call 'maintain an integrity that took time to build up'! the worst part is that they realise this but they cant stop because they have been doing this all their life and they dont know how to be otherwise! so you are in this mess which you somehow indirectly concocted but is it necessary to drag others into it as well. you understand it is horrible and fake yet you hold others by the hand and include them into the bogus sham you call life!
trust? a friend told me not to trust, at least not wholly. how does a person do that? i always thought it was either you trust a person or you dont; it was never an in between kind of thing. human sociology is just beyond me. well in a sense this friend is right. when you trust a person you are very vulnerable. you put your mental, emotional and physical health into this person's hand(more like brain) . but what other options do i have? its either i die holding thhings in. the options dont exactly look good to me.
the extremities of life is hard to fathom but.................
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brats-stressed & co. !!!!
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brats-inter culture freaks!!!*
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The most revolutionary act you can commit in today's society is to be publicly happy.
"When it's all over, I want to say all my life I was a bride married to amazement." -Mary Oliver
"You have to let the small animal of your body love what it loves." -Mary Oliver
"You have to let the small animal of your body love what it loves." -Mary Oliver
"In every job that must be done there is an element of fun; you find that fun and snap, the job's a game." -Mary Poppins
"Only a life lived for others is worthwhile." -Albert Einstein
With passion, anything is possible.
adapted of patch's 10 ideas of
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rob!~
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all 5ive~
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the three of us~
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is it worth to compromise something you are really passionate about for the mere fact that you would like to be different? somewhat special and have your very own individual personality? i do realise that teenagers or even human beings in general have things or items that they love which may be similar to the other 3 333 333 333 million individuals out there that a liking may turn into a stereotypical joke rather than a passion but i still rivert my question back to whether its conceivable to let go or deny your very love for the sake of being different?
we strive to be different, special, to stand out and to get noticed but is that all worth a compromise of self-growth and the 'true' you?
is it also worth to adjust and fit in than to stand out and be yourself? what if what u wanted was way out of reach from what others want? do you forget what u want? just give in and try to be happy while you're at it? what if adjusting is just not your kind of thing and this really crazy passion of yours really defines you as a person and is bursting to come out and surface? then what do you do?
i understand if read with a analytical mind my entry would seem senseless and gibberish if you may but i just dont get the people of today! we are clearly defined in different ways, codes putting it scientifically... skin colour, genetic orientation, hair, eyes and all other physical (on-the-surface) items but on the other hand we are also defined by our love, passion, and personality... some people constrict their self-growth by tryin to dance along to the tunes of the majority while others totally deny ang grow to hate what truly inspired them just because the majority found a large following for it!
why cant we just be who we are?
without faking it?
without trying to fit in?
without misreably trying to stand out?
why cant we just be ?
and be happy while we are at it?
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gel + tiff....wee!
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don't be too fat
dont be too thin
not too smart
not dumb either
never never be too b*tchy
not too timid too
oh gosh!you should never ever be showing sadness
now now why are you so overly happy?
how exactly is an individual supposed to live in this world which most totally and utterly prides itself on double standards? how shamelessly we go around telling the world that everything is fair and no one ever is mistreated and yet deep down inside the dark abyss of our ever so corrupted minds we do uphold certain ideas on how one should act! we secretly whisper to each other oh-so silently about this person and that behind their very backs...and for what? just for maybe a simple crime of over-dressing or say...an over-friendly attitude?
do we ever stop to examine the very impact we are holding over people when we judge them by imaginary-unsaid standards? the victims of this brutal judgement suffer tremendously and we never realise this!we just go on being the self-centered people we were raised up to be without a care in the world!how are we judged then?
guys against girls
girls against girls
i will never in my wildest dreams understand this so-called unversal rule of life even if i devoted my whole life to it...we hurt ourselves...we hurt each other....suffering in the midst of it all...the drama being so intense and even at times sick but yet we still go on doing it...we judge and judge until we cant judge no more and even then we will ourself to do it...where is the sense in that?
rich / poor / strong / weak
the discrimination is so much..too much...the alpha-male is special, different, able to commit certain acts without question...its more than alright if he flirts but if she does it...oh! i guarantee you there will be a whole load of dirty looks with people whispering the definite favourite word ( b*tch ) why do guys get to do certain things and girls get judged if they do it?
who is responsible to draw the line? gosh! people act in horrible horrible manners?! its amazing! truly never knew we could exhibit so different characters all at the very same time and to think that we all of the same species!
people with intelectual abilities favour people like them and others that stand out prefer their own species but what about those who havent truly found out their true potential and talent?
they just stand by and be
unwanted / despised / forgotten
i s o l a t e d
~ wonder where i stand ~
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simple euphoria!*
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